I need a nap. Not like, I would enjoy a nap, or a nap sounds nice right about now, but like, I NEED a nap. My eyelids are droopy and my minds all in a fog and my body does not want to move another inch. Not one inch. And even though there are lunch dishes in the sink, and the younger boys are already home after an early release from school, and I have about 38 things that I really need to get done today – despite all that – I think I’m gonna lay down for 20 minutes. Because I am exhausted. I might make an appointment with the doctor to adjust my thyroid medication. I’m that tired. But I think the more likely culprit is the way in which things are done around here. I prefer to lay the blame for my ransacked life force squarely on the back of the retardedness in which we live. I think it makes me tired that I have to take a walk, a bus, a car, and sometimes a taxi in order to make it out to start English classes in “el precario” by 9:00am. Which means that to get to a place that is probably only like 5 miles from my house, I have to leave by 7:40. Ick.
And then there is the Spanish….*groan*.
I like that I am being forced to learn a new language. Really I do. But OH MY GOSH is it tiring! It just sucks the energy from me – leaving me useless, nearly catatonic, and occasionally drooling down the side of my face. Please pray that this would begin to improve for me. Steve has been working alongside Latinos for almost a year now. His Spanish is absolutely impressive (I’m both super proud and super jealous of him) and he seems to be past this exhaustion stage. That’s what I want. I want to be like Steve. To have a full day of Spanish and come home in something more than a vegetative state. That would be really cool.
Well, since I spent 20 minutes writing a blog instead of taking a nap, I guess I’ll have to make some coffee, smack myself around like one of the three stooges, and do a Flash Dance style running jag through the house. That should wake me up just enough to finish the laundry, play with the boys and throw dinner on the table before I pass out, utterly spent, at 8:15.
Okay then, here I go…..